Scared, Confused...

Well, these past two weeks, or this past month I should say, has really been the worst so far.
Despite the fact that really nothing happens in November, its just been a crummy month...
Yeah, I realize its over, but I also haven't blogged in a while.
Basically, I've never felt this way about anybody before.
I mean, my longest relationship was six months, and it was a complete disaster.
When I look back on it now, what was I thinking? I mean really...
But regardess, what's done is done. It was an experience.
The point is, currently, I've never felt this way.
It actually scares me a little.
But can someone really this good stay in your life, when someone from thier past is still in their present?
Will they just ruin it all?
Yeah, it may sound selfish...or rude, but at some point I just want a normal relationship.
Why is that so hard?
I am happy, I really am.
But if she gets in the way...It won't be pretty.

Been too long...

Wow, feels like I haven't blogged in a while now.

Think I should start blogging more often now.

Humber has really been keeping me busy, especially now with exams.

But regardless, I am in the best program I could ask for. I'm so lucky to have been accepted.

Things have never felt better.

I'm doing so well in school, I've made new friends, even found a new boyfriend.

Things are changing, and time is moving faster every day.

I'm trying to really live each day to my fullest, and trying to accomplish as much as I can.

Thankfully, this is the last week of exams, then I can relax and finally sleep in.

Our schedules are crazy!

Despite the fact that I really don't miss high school, one thing I can really say, is I miss my sleep. I used to get 8-10 hours of sleep a night, and now I'm lucky to get 6! Its been such a roller coaster right so far. But I'm not ready to get off...its just the beginning!

As for blogging, I'm back on and ready to blog! Man, I've missed this!

Exams!

Ah, here comes the FINAL stress of the year.

Exam time!

So thinking Acting Academy wouldn't be as hard, it turned out to be!

The exam is really hectic & its really a go go go.

Gotta move fast, lots of typing, & thinking.

A lot of planning, but its also a different exam.

We're so used to the same typical "sit in class & write" exams, that this is just so different.

We actually do a lot of work to put an amazing show.

In Spanish, I have completed & handed in my slideshow.

It was a simple, yet interesting exam.

Overall, this last semester has been UNBELIEVABLE & I have learned a lot.

Thank you Mr. Tobon & Mrs. Thomas for making my last & final semester SO memorable.

It will never be forgotten.

Class of 2010!;)

Los Angeles

So I have to say, my dream has finally come true.

I have visited the place I have always only dreamed of going

It was amazing; every second of the day I spent there.

From the malls to the beach, it was just amazing.

The best part of the whole trip was going on the Ellen Studio.

I have always loved that show & to actually walk on the SAME stage as Ellen, was just a dream come true.

Despite the night I got sick, everything was just perfect.

I mean, I did have higher expectations for the weather, but honestly I shouldn't complain.

It was raining here! -- LA was amazing.

I can honestly say that L.A is my new home. I am planning on moving there the second I get a chance.

Its somewhere I would love to call home.

Its PERFECT; words can't describe how I felt while I was over there; I have never felt better in my life.

That was the first, but NEVER the last time I'll be back!

CALIFORNIA GIRLS - Katy Perry (My song of the summer!) -- xo.

Summer 2010!

Hello Summer '10!

That time has finally come, beaches, tanning, shopping, & of course, no school!

I am definitly excited to sleep in this summer, & I can't wait to finally get my G2.

This summer my goal is to REALLY try something I would never ever think about trying.

Maybe Skydiving? Or Bungie Jumping? Maybe just doing something like taking Horseback riding lessons?

I really want to make this summer the most memorable summer ever!

Hopefully it will be super warm & sunny:)

from wonderland missions to sleepovers, I am hoping this summer will be the best yet!

Montreal maybe? Or maybe Cuba.

I am hoping to go on a week vacation somewhere this summer!

It would be amazing.

But regardless of what I do, I am just happy its summer.

Time to LIVE IT UP!

Summer 2010;

Final Moments...

So its finally the end.

Grade school has finally finished.

I am finally going to College; its scary just to even process that!

I have learned so much about myself these four years & I have changed a lot.

I am so much more mature than I was in grade 9.

Grade 12 was amazing, & I loved every second of it.

Acting Academy was definitly my highlight.

Mrs.Thomas really pushed us & taught us not just about a subject, but about ourselves.

I have never thought I could actually go for auditions & I never realized how many contacts there are here in Toronto.

It has always just been a fantasy to become an actress, but now I see that it doesn't have to be just a dream, it can really be reality & with the right contacts and the right attitude I can definitly reach my goals.

I am on my own from now on & if it wasn't for my amazing teachers & my parents guiding me all this way, I would not be who I am today.

I am so much more confident in myself than I was in grade 9, I really feel that I am ready to go to College & that there are so many amazing opportunities for me & that a new life for me has just begun.

I can't wait to start the beginning of something new.

Humber -- Here I come;)!

Change...

So many have asked "why did you go blonde?"
Simple.
I needed change.
I have been a brunette all my life & I just wanted to try something new.
I mean, that's what life is all about right?
Making mistakes, taking risks, trying new things?
So why do people always criticise?

Why do people bother with what you do?

you want a tattoo? You want a piercing?

So do it! -- You only live once, right?

Why not take that opportunity to do something you've always wanted to try.

If thats what people are telling us, & what we should be able to do,

if this is OUR life, why not?

I mean, I'm no rebel, but I just simply wanted to try something new.

It may not last forever, but why not play around?

So, I've decided to go blonde.

Its just a change, we all need that once in a while.

Its not too crazy, its not a bad change, its just different.

I mean, I decided I like it better than my brown hair, so why not?!

Why always question things? Sometimes its best just to try it.

So, I believe in change.

& for now, I will be a blonde!

Until next time... :)