Idol

What is an idol?

Well, to me an idol is someone that stands out.

Someone that I look at & say, "wow, they are talented"

Someone that is memorable & not forgotten.

I believe that everyone looks for their own type of idol

&someone that really makes an impact on them.

I am sitting here, watching American Idol.

&During the whole two hours that I have been watching this,

what really stood out to me,

was when Simon said, "everyone is trying to be the same, they're all coming out here singing the same types of songs & I can tell you who you sound like by me just listening to your voice without even looking at you...we are looking for someone unique and different & thats whats going to make it win"

That stood out to me because if an idol to someone is suppose to be a preson that stands out,

&if everyone that tried out for American Idol is all the same,

Then why do they put them through?

It shouldn't be about the better voice, it should be about being different,

but having an amazing voice as well to make that happen.

If everyone is always the same, why put them through?

How do you determine who is the next idol & who isn't?

As much as people bash Simon, I believe that he is very educated & the most honest

throughout the whole show.

So to me, right now within American Idol,

I believe that they should really try harder to stand out,

because right now everyone is doing the same thing.

Dear Boy

Dear boy,

this one's for you.

For you because I could never let it out.

I couldn't open up.

I won't open up.

I won't tell you how I feel,

because I know you don't understand.

You don't see what I'm seeing.

you are clueless.

We talk, every night.

You tell me everything,

you tell me things people have never took the time to tell me.

You let me talk, & you listen.

You listen to all my rants,

my stories,

my feelings.

You get me, like no one else has.

But no matter how much you talk to me,

Im still invisible.

Are you blind?

Can you not see,

is it not obvious enough?

you did hurt me.

& I really like you.

Or so I thought I did.

Dear boy,

I'm letting you know,

because I can't face you.

Everytime I see you,

I think of an excuse to walk away.

Especially when she's with you.

You say you're over her.

But I see the way you look at her,
the way you talk about her,

you're in love with her.

Don't try to hide it, cause I see right through you.

So you think you can just use me,

&then tell me,

"you don't want anything"

So is that all I am to you?

A game?

A game that you think you're winning?

Well guess what?

I've got you figured out.

You're not winning

because the game

is over.

So all I have to say,

is that you've had your chance.

& Now, its too late.

You blew it.

So don't come back

& act like everything is the same,

because its not.

Nothing is ever the same.

& neither are you.

What we had was short,

but its over.

& So are my feelings.

They're over you.

So dear boy,

I just wanted to say,

thanks.

Thanks for making me a stronger person

because of you, I have high expectations,

because of you, I will prove you wrong,

because of you, I will be better than she ever was,

I will make you miss me,

because, I know you will.

So girls,

if you fall, make sure he'll be there to catch you,

other wise, you're left with a headache,

& no one willing to help you up.

Sincerly,

Nevena

"He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see" - Taylor Swift

Unknown

Unknown

One simple word.

That can mean so much.

What does it even mean to be unknown?

Is it something that we really want to be?

No, of course not.

But then how do you make yourself known?

Sometimes I feel that my life is nothing but a routine.

Same thing over & over again.

Go to school, go home, eat, do something "productive", homework, shower, sleep;

&something like that every day.

Nothing but the same routine.

So what do I do?

Today, the power went out, for about 30 minutes.
Honestly, I sat there, wondering what I was suppose to do now.

You never know how much you actually depend on technology till its gone.

But why? I mean, why are we letting it take over?

Is it all we know?

Well thats not what I want to know.

I want to know who I am, & my purpose.

I want to have a meaning.

I always tell myself, today will be the day,

today I want to change, I will change.

Do I?

No.

I don't, simply because I don't know how, how do I wake up?

How do I wake up from this "normal" society where everyone seems to be the same?

With all the same personalities & styles?

Do I want to be a part of that? No.

I want to be unique.

I want to be different.

I want to make a difference.

I want to break out from a "routined" life & do something unique.

Maybe even rebelious.

Something that I can look back on & say,

"damn, I can't believe I did that"

I want to feel that adrenaline rush.

I want to be known.

"When your life flashes before your eyes, make sure it's fun to watch!"

Branding

Branding

I think of it as a way to emphasis me

&who I am

&what I want to be known for.

It is something that should stand out

Something that will be

remembered

I love the idea of creating an event for our group to brand ourselves

because I know everyone has their own ideas,

thoughts,

& ways of presenting.

I believe that working with different people

&really focusing on how we want to be branded as

will make us think of our

creative

& dynamic

side

Its a great way to show everyone

"this is us & this is how we want to be remembered"

we want to leave a mark, before someone else does.

Everyone wants to be unique, & different.

We all want to strive to do our best, & make ourselves known.

But everyone has different ways of doing that.

It will be a great way to see how everyone takes a different approach on their situations

&What happens next.

For now, we are strong & will will rise to the top because we will be

unique,

powerful,

interesting,

& we will stand out.

The Vision Thing

In class, we read an article called the Vision Thing, by Karen Kondazian.

This article really stood out to me & I gained a lot of knowledge from it.

What really stood out to me throughout this whole article was when Dr. Maurer stated,

"It all boils down to how you define success. Most people get trapped by defining success as what they acquire in life. It's about their possessions, how much money they earn, their titles, their credits."

To me, success is something that many people strive for all their life.

Success is something that is very hard to define.

It all depends on what it is you want to achieve.

It is to set a goal for yourself & strive with all your strength to complete it.

That certain quote stood out to me because it is something I strongly believe in.

It is something that everyone should strive for and really decide what goal is to be reached.

I believe that everyone has a different goal set and to everyone should do their best to achieve those goals in any way they believe.

It really made me see that success isn't measured by what you have or how wealthy you are,

but how you make a difference.

I beleive that everyone should make a difference and succeed in whatever they are passionate about.

No matter what.

Being in the Moment

So a few days ago in class,

we have start talking about what it means to “Be in the Moment”.

I believe that there are numerous ways in which we can go about this topic.

Being in the moment can essentially mean to be in the present.
What that means is everything that is being done is in the present, such as:

eating,

sleeping,

or any type of action.

It can also mean while you’re in the present,

you are acting as you are using different aspects of your own life

or using empathy to create a moment a character has weather it is angry or happy

– any mood for that matter.

Being in the moment is also escaping your head,

in other words just concentraiting on one thing and react within a certain situation.

Being in the moment is having no time to think

and just reacting

because if you overthink things then it could turn out that it won’t feel in the moment

and it will not be organic.

Being in the moment can also mean to become a scientist in your mind.

In the class, we have been reading an article called The Vision Thing by Karen Kondazain

and just by reading this article I can connect it to being in the moment

because if you are really interested in getting to the truth of what is happening in ones mind during certain points in their life

and how they deal with it by being in the moment.

Overall, being in the moment is taking action and reacting

in the moment.

Best Friends

You have been through the thick and thin.

You have been there for me through everything.
Sometimes I envy you, other times I need you.
At the end of the day, I will be there for you, no matter what.
But lately, it's been bugging me.
Am I not good enough?
Should I be a better friend?
Is what I am doing not enough?
I want to be there through everything, but I feel M.I.A
Am I?
Somtimes I feel lost, and confused.
Maybe its just me, maybe I don't see it.
But maybe you do.
We've been through lies & betrayals.
We've been through love & lust.
I am leaving in a few months.
Will things change?
Will we still be there?
With all that we've been through, will you still be there
When I need you the most.
If I am ever crying in the middle of the night,
will you still answer, like you did back then.
Back then when we played barbies and dolls.
When boys had cooties and we would laugh at them.
Back then where we didn't care about the world?
When everything was just fun and games.
Will you still be there?
Be there to laugh at my jokes?
Be there to share memories?
Be there to be my best friend?
Because sometimes, all I need is you.
Best friends Always?
Forever.

Complete Stranger

You weren't someone that I thought you were.

You're one of those people who assume they know me.

They think they know me, but they don't.

They assume I'm weak, they assume I'm scared.

Well, I'm not.

You don't know me.

You don't know what I am capeable of.

Don't underestimate me.

I can be defeated, but I can also defeat you.

You sit there, wondering, "what is wrong with her?"

Oh, boy please.

There's nothing wrong with me,

but maybe you should look in the mirror once in a while.

Then you'll see, what is hurting me.

You act so innocent, and sweet.

That smile you flash accross your face.

Those stories you tell.

Those games you play.

Well, I refuse to fall for you

I refuse to fall,

because I know, you won't be there to catch me.

We smile together,

we laugh together,

we share together.
But at the end of the day,

we're two different people.

Expecting two different things.

It drives me crazy that you don't understand.

& I sit here, with a smile across my face, saying "it will be okay"

When deep down,

there is nothing,

nothing to be hopeful.

Because at the end of the day,

you are nothing but a stranger.

a stranger.

Yes, thats all, I know that.

But yet, I can't let go.

I seem to be holding on, for what reason?

Not even I know.

But I guess I believe in something...

Something that may not exist.

Am I stupid? Foolish? Maybe.

But do I give up? No.

Should I give up? Maybe.

You may never figure me out

but boy, I've got you figured out,

from head to toe.

So please,

Don't play games,

because games aren't my style.

But for now, all that I believe is that you in fact are

a stranger.

&You will regret it.

Hope; is there any?

The way I see it

Is that there is no hope

I mean, what is hope?

Something that we can hold on to for only so long?

Something that we have to wait on forever?

We wait for something that potentially may not happen?

Wait for what?

What is worth the wait?

What is the point of hope?

Don't all good things come to an end?

So why are we going to waste our life waiting?

Hoping

Wondering

for something, that may not happen

so what are you waiting for?

is it worth it?

don't waste your time if you're not a hundred per cent sure

because, life is short

&you should live life to the fullest

doing things you don't have to hope or wait for

they all just come

naturally.
Or so I thought...
Well, I saw Shawshank Redemption over the weekend,
& honestly, that movie has opened my eyes.
I have never been so inspired in my life.
I realized that no matter what challenges we face in the world,
it can't be as bad as what other people in other countries are going through,
we should take time to thank god & our family for what we have,
because we never know how much we have till it is gone.
Then what's the point of it all?
Nothing.
There is no point in anything, if you don't have hope.
Hope is something that is suppose to push you to succeed
where you won't give up,
& you just keep going & going.
Even though Andy & Red didn't have anything to live for,
even though they were sentenced to life in person,
they still survived, & when they got out, they really made it worth the while.
Even though Red was lost in society, he had someone to turn to,
& help to get him far,
most of all, he had desire,
& he had
Hope

Heres to you

Heres to you.
For everything I thought you were.
You were innocent & young.
I only knew you so well.
You were someone I could really talk to
Someone that I never made fun of or found annoying
or even turned away, just because others did.
I was there for you whether you knew that or not.
But now, now I don't even know you.
I hear things, these rumours that are being spread.
Who are you?
I thought I knew you.
I may be mistaken.
So, this one is for you.
Why did you put up with him?
Why are you letting him hurt you?
Is it really love?
Or is it just obsession & overpowering?
Some may say "she loves him" but how can it be love?
Does she not see, what is being done to her?
Why won't anyone stop it?
Because they're afraid?
She got herself involved?
How was she to know that it was going to come to this?
She DIDN'T. I refuse to believe these rumours.
I hope you show up one day, with a smile on your face.
A lot say "I wouldn't be surprised if she was dead"
How can you even THINK about that?
Why won't anyone just step up, SPEAK up.
I hope she realizes what she is doing.
&if you ever even read this, if you are out there & you are okay...
I hope you know, you are strong, brave, &lonely.
Get help, because I know someone will lend a hand.
I may not even cross your mind, but today you have crossed mine.
So, heres to you.
You were on my mind today,
But I hope that you'll be okay.

This, is for you.
xo.

Life; 4 words, countless definitions

Have you ever stopped to think, why are YOU here?

Well, this question has crossed my mind numerous times & I honestly don’t know.

I mean, we all die in the end, right? So why are we here?

What is OUR purpose in life today, everyday for the next multiple years?

What is the point of so many people struggling to get through certain things like poverty, illness, and even the simplest things like school, if we are all meant to die in the end? Why do we get grounded? Why do we do certain things like fight & back stab each other, when in the end we die anyways? Why do we cry? So many questions, but yet no one has given me an answer. So Im going to go ahead & try to answer this in one way; in my way.

I believe that the reason why we are created in this world IS to gain that experience as a human, and really create a purpose for yourself. Sometimes you may stop to think, & really wonder why you are here. But everyone is here for a different purpose & chance. All we get is one chance to create that purpose.

So are you going to take a chance?

Will you leave a mark in the world before someone ELSE does?




All good things come to an end - Nelly Furtado

The Start of Something New!

So I’ve decided to try something new!

Since I’ve been told I talk a lot, I decided to voice my opinion and share my thoughts through one thing, one way:

BLOGGING.

This will be a great way to express my emotions and thoughts and for people to actually read about the real me & my real feelings.

Its a great way for me to really be me & for others to simply interact with me on a different level.

Im not here to trash anyone or offend; just simply stating my opinion.

So, this is going to be all about my life & experiences;

naturally; nevena - xoxo.