Dear Boy

Dear boy,

this one's for you.

For you because I could never let it out.

I couldn't open up.

I won't open up.

I won't tell you how I feel,

because I know you don't understand.

You don't see what I'm seeing.

you are clueless.

We talk, every night.

You tell me everything,

you tell me things people have never took the time to tell me.

You let me talk, & you listen.

You listen to all my rants,

my stories,

my feelings.

You get me, like no one else has.

But no matter how much you talk to me,

Im still invisible.

Are you blind?

Can you not see,

is it not obvious enough?

you did hurt me.

& I really like you.

Or so I thought I did.

Dear boy,

I'm letting you know,

because I can't face you.

Everytime I see you,

I think of an excuse to walk away.

Especially when she's with you.

You say you're over her.

But I see the way you look at her,
the way you talk about her,

you're in love with her.

Don't try to hide it, cause I see right through you.

So you think you can just use me,

&then tell me,

"you don't want anything"

So is that all I am to you?

A game?

A game that you think you're winning?

Well guess what?

I've got you figured out.

You're not winning

because the game

is over.

So all I have to say,

is that you've had your chance.

& Now, its too late.

You blew it.

So don't come back

& act like everything is the same,

because its not.

Nothing is ever the same.

& neither are you.

What we had was short,

but its over.

& So are my feelings.

They're over you.

So dear boy,

I just wanted to say,

thanks.

Thanks for making me a stronger person

because of you, I have high expectations,

because of you, I will prove you wrong,

because of you, I will be better than she ever was,

I will make you miss me,

because, I know you will.

So girls,

if you fall, make sure he'll be there to catch you,

other wise, you're left with a headache,

& no one willing to help you up.

Sincerly,

Nevena

"He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see" - Taylor Swift